Finding Beauty in Transparency

This blog was inspired during a trip to the Atlanta aquarium, on February 1st. I’ve been to a couple of other aquariums – Baltimore and Nassau Bahamas – but never have I looked at the exhibits in the manner I did during this last visit. But, can I just mention how lowkey geeked I was to be at the same aquarium where they filmed Daddy’s Little Girls lol. I know, I know…Focus, Shon, Focus!

The one thing I realized, while exploring the exhibits, is the ability to vividly see into the fish’s aquatic habitat. So much so, that when I looked up, I was exposed to things I wouldn’t ordinarily see had I not had access to that point of view. There was so much beauty in this exposure. Their intense vibrant colors, the various schools of fish, the clear water, etc.

I couldn’t help but think: If people could see every part of my being, what would they really see? Good question…right? Right! I think this is a question we need to ask ourselves from time to time. Especially in this day in age where people are living for culture and the gram (Hmm…I might have to do a part 2 to this blog to address those areas).

As a person living with chronic pain, there have been many times where I have slapped a smile on my face all while suffering on the inside. Trying to paint a perfect picture, when in all actuality, I was physically (and sometimes emotionally) hurting. Truth is, most people, especially those that are close to me, could see right through me. But I was too busy trying to conceal the real and cloud their vision.

Why did I do these things? Glad you asked. Primarily because I did not want to expose what I {at times} perceived as the “weak” part of my being, I was tired of explaining my reasons/conditions for not feeling well, and I was over the have you tried recommendations from each person I decided to share my truth with. What I didn’t realize at the time was the amount of beauty in my pain, and its exposure was a necessary part of the process. Living with Chronic Pain has changed my paradigm and has given me a new-found level of gratitude for so much, especially the “good days” as I am incredibly grateful for pain-free days and/or days in which I am able to fully function with minimal to no pain disturbances. Living with Chronic Pain has also birthed purpose in me, and most importantly, has strengthened my relationship with God. Now, I no longer conceal the things I used to, and I allow others to clearly see me. Granted, I still get a little tired of the explanations and the Dr. Phil recommendations, lol, however, the purpose is greater! Being verbal, open (like a fishbowl), and honest about how I’m feeling and my conditions, has opened the door to connect with and comfort other women who struggle with the same. Here is an example, I have a co-worker whose wife is struggling with Chronic Pain, and he recently asked me about my coping mechanisms and if I had any advice to provide. Now, if I weren’t open about my conditions then, he wouldn’t have even known to inquire. Those things which we are trying to cover could be the very thing that God wants to use for purpose and His glory. Praise God!

So just like the glass at the aquarium, I encourage you to let others see through your glass giving them full visibility to your inner beauty. But, most importantly so God can use you. When we know who we are in Christ Jesus, we no longer have to hide…hide behind the pain, shame or the opinion of others.

“All praises belong to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. For He is the Father of tender mercy and the God of endless comfort. He always comes alongside us to comfort us in every suffering so that we can come alongside those who are in any painful trial. We can bring them this same comfort that God has poured out upon us” (2 Corinthians 1: 3 - 4).

Stay blessed,